Do you ever have those moments where you are minding your own business? And in those moments a random song will pop up into you head or you will simply find yourself singing to a song that is not playing anywhere around you? The song “Lord, I Need You” by Matt Maher is that song for me right now.
This beautiful song has guided me through pretty intense stresses lately. From wedding planning to parenting, working to support my family to spending legitimate time with my loved ones, and everything in between- you could safely say that I am experiencing a stressful time in life. It’s nothing I can’t handle, certainly God has delivered me through more intense situations. However, I think many of us experience those mini-stress seasons that we build up for no reason but yet can’t seem to help it.
During these seasons, I typically withdraw from the people that I love. It’s an odd thing because deep down inside, being alone is the last thing that I want. Nevertheless, these are the seasons in life where I struggle most. I have my faith, I know that God will pull me through, but there is something in my physical health and being that shifts when I go through these seasons.
It is safe to say that Christians are not exempt from a flawless life. As a matter of fact, we are not more special than others. Righteously so, that is not why we are children of God. The truth of the matter is that we need trials and struggles in our lives so that we are tested of our faith. We need situations in our life that humble us to the point where we cling on to God or turn to Him for wisdom.
It can become rather dangerous when a Christian becomes comfortable in their life when there is minimal issues. People tend to develop this attitude of, “I’ve got this”. This attitude usually allows them to sail smoothly in life for a little while but eventually, they will realize that something is missing. It is okay to celebrate your blessings in life, especially the seasons in your life that you can enjoy your time here on earth. However, one must not be careful to get to prideful about it because it can stir up pride and a temporary separation between you and God without you realizing it.
No one could ever achieve the point in life where they have learned and experienced all that God provides. For HE is the Ultimate Source of Knowledge and Wisdom. Anything we know on earth could never measure up to what all He actually knows. It is because of our limitations that we must never assume that we have read it all, heard it all, or know it all.
When it comes to being in these minor trials in life, I tend to withdraw from even getting into my Bible!! Then I think to myself, Shaylyn don’t shame yourself or make yourself feel guilty. I remind myself that I am human, imperfect, and there are going to be times in my life where this occurs. Don’t get me wrong, I cling to God during these moment – but anything else is completely at arm’s length.
Now this brings me back to this song. During this season, I have found myself having this song just pop up in my head randomly or I have found myself just starting to sing it out of the blue. What I have come to learn is that God has used this as a melody, a lullaby, and the only way to keep my head on straight with Him. God has lead me to meditating in this particular song so I remember that I do need Him. This song is also great at humbling me and keeping me grounded when the ground beneath me is appearing to dissolve.
I personally love how God meets you and reaches you right where you are at. He knows our hearts better than anyone. When we think He has forgotten us or doesn’t know who we are, He will do everything He can to find us and let us know that He knows exactly who we are and that He loves us. How great is it that we can have a Loving Father like this. One who meets us in our depression and anxiety, One who speaks to us through song, One who aspires for us to feel good about ourselves instead of ashamed!
It is my prayer for anyone that is in a season where they are withdrawn, stressed, anxiousness, or hurting that they would find God and just cling on to Him. When they can’t find their own way, allow Him to lead. It’s amazing to see what He will do.